3 weeks and going strong
I'm riding the roller coaster of living without numbing out. The last few days I have been feeling surprisingly down for no reason. Last week I had so much energy.
I realized I am so in tune with my emotions that it dawned on me that while drinking I would numb out at all times so I wouldn't have to feel the stresses of regular life. One imparticular is the relationship I have with my 3 kiddos. They bring me such joy and lots of angst too. Handling the demands each have of my and their bickering amongst each other has been quite challenging and very uncomfortable! I use to just power through with a smoke screen, blocking out the irritating feelings. Getting stuff done was with my physical being not my emotional being. I do not care for constantly organizing and getting their needs met ALL the time. It's exhausting. I just need to take some time when I completely check out in a healthy way. I think I will incorporate a DND (Do nothing day) once a week (half day) where I do nothing for my family and do everything for myself. I can look forward to that day when Im in the midst of crazy family stuff and just calmly smile with the gentle thoughts of my DND!
I realized I am so in tune with my emotions that it dawned on me that while drinking I would numb out at all times so I wouldn't have to feel the stresses of regular life. One imparticular is the relationship I have with my 3 kiddos. They bring me such joy and lots of angst too. Handling the demands each have of my and their bickering amongst each other has been quite challenging and very uncomfortable! I use to just power through with a smoke screen, blocking out the irritating feelings. Getting stuff done was with my physical being not my emotional being. I do not care for constantly organizing and getting their needs met ALL the time. It's exhausting. I just need to take some time when I completely check out in a healthy way. I think I will incorporate a DND (Do nothing day) once a week (half day) where I do nothing for my family and do everything for myself. I can look forward to that day when Im in the midst of crazy family stuff and just calmly smile with the gentle thoughts of my DND!
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